This past weekend a number of teammates and I competed at NY Open. Our people fought hard- won some, lost some, and overall left as better people for it. I had one match against a wonderful fellow black belt, we had a great back and forth match (us old ladies can duke it out!) and I ended up winning by an advantage.
I’m bringing this up not because of the win itself, but because of everything leading up to it: rewind to a little over a month ago, I also competed at Pans, and I did terribly. Like, it was pretty bad, guys. It a beautiful demonstration of jiu jitsu for my competitor (who I also think is a lovely human- absolutely no hard feelings towards her) where I felt I couldn’t do anything right. So understandably, I was pretty bummed about the match afterwards.
So, while it sucked, I also made a conscious choice to not give up. I made a choice, rather than to create excuses for myself that I would work to improve and compete again- with the intention of hopefully doing better than this spectacularly bad performance. And I would like to think that I accomplished that: the medal I received at NY Open to me is not a recognition of winning per se, but rather of progress and perseverance, even when it seemed easier at times to just say “forget it”.
It’s a hard decision sometimes to make sometimes, a commitment to keep pushing forward, and I’m talking on and off the mat. I’m sure we’ve all had those days at work where the minute you step in the door things just go wrong: from start to finish and it feels like you just can’t catch a break. It’s hard to think that anything could ever go right again, and you just kind of want to throw your hands in the air and say “the hell to all of this.”
Regardless of whether you’re on the mat, I would urge you to not give up: the only true failure is when you stop trying. So you’re rolling with higher ranked teammates and you can’t catch a break? Getting choked left and right? Keep trying, keep learning from your mistakes, and keep pushing forward- the only way you will truly stop progressing is when you refuse to try anymore.
That’s all I’ve got for now- have a great day everyone!